Have you ever been excited about something, but scared about it at the same time? You’ve got butterflies in your stomach when you think about this thing because you are super nervous, but then at other times you jump up and down because you are excited.
That’s the way I feel about She Speaks.
She Speaks is a conference for women who feel God calling them to write and speak. It’s sponsored by Proverbs 31 Ministries. (If you are a woman and don’t yet subscribe to their daily devotions then you should. Check them out here: http://proverbs31.org/)
I’ve been writing for almost two years now. During this time I have felt God telling me to write my story (which I posted about here: http://kidmindays.com/2014/10/10/write-your-story/). I have begun writing a book, but wasn’t sure how in the world I was going to be able to share it with others.
And then God opened the door for me to attend She Speaks.
During this conference, I will be able to attend workshops that will help me with writing and speaking. I will get a chance to meet 700+ women who also feel God calling them to write and speak. I will also have the opportunity to meet with a few publishers and pitch my book idea to them. And that’s where the scary part comes in.
In this book, I share about my life in the ministry: the fears I have had and have overcome in serving God. First of all, that’s scary. I open up and share personal stories that many people will read. I am not one to openly share, but that’s what I feel God wants me to do.
Second of all, it’s scary because I have to pitch this book idea to publishers. I have to hook them with my story and hope they are intrigued enough to want to publish my book. And this brings on so many other fears that I have had to pray about and overcome.
But, over the past few weeks, I have learned that I am not the only woman attending this conference who is scared. I am part of the She Speaks Facebook page and have had enjoyed meeting and learning more about these women who will be attending the conference, too. Many of them are sharing their fears and insecurities they feel in going to this conference and in writing and speaking. It brings me comfort to know I am not alone in my fears. And these women have also been so supportive. I am looking forward to meeting them.
She Speaks takes place July 23-25 in Charlotte, NC, I ask for your prayers as I prepare for this conference. Over the next month, I will be busy writing a book proposal, writing a one-sheet, making business cards, and praying. I ask you to pray for me as I begin to do these things. Pray for God’s wisdom, for me to hear and listen to God, and for me to walk the path which God wants.
I am ready to learn more. I am ready to be obedient and go where God sends me in this new path of writing and speaking.
Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, “Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?” And I said, “Here am I. Send me!” Isaiah 6:8